What does all this mean to me being a father (and husband)? How have I changed? How have we changed? Let’s discuss Newton’s Third Law of Motion. For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. There must be balance. Something cannot come from nothing.
I am still the same but slightly worn. Kat is like a fine wine – she always looks great. But I know she’s tired. I am tired. You are all tired. Everyone is tired. I think you are all tired of reading this too! We have reached a new balance which will also be shifting as our kids (and we) grow older. I love my wife. I love my children. I love my family. I love my profession. I try to think about how to do things better, how to understand cancer better, how to improve T-cells to better target cancer. I also love my family and try to figure out how to be a better husband and father; how to spend time with everyone and to be present. I imagine there are many people out there that do the same.
I am no one in particular and I live in the same blue ball that is floating through space near a yellow star. But the question still remains: what does this all mean to me?
Life is more than just numbers, cells and molecules. All of the things come together to make a completely new whole. Put more simply, take all the following components water, yeast, flour, sugar, salt, tomatoes, basil pepperoni, mozzarella. Separately they are interesting. When combined, they make a very tasty pizza (see post)! What does being a parent mean to me? What is all this worth to me? 42? It means nothing to me and at the same time, it means everything.
Being a parent, like being a husband, is part of living; part of the circle of life. For me, there are many reasons why I made the choice (together with Kat) to be a dad. While challenging, I get to be a part of the process of caring for a little human being that may one day look back at these moments and hopefully have wonderful memories. I get to be a part of a process that I did not have the opportunity to have. I get to be an example while at the same time growing in ways I never thought of. The meaning is inside me! The meaning is inside everyone. It’s personal. My version of parenthood may be different from yours.
I live for those special rare moments that we all share as a family – good and bad. My son is going to school and I get to watch his transformation. Most important – he really loves to play with me. I love spending that time with him. My daughter is walking! Honestly, I just hope that I really get to enjoy them both while they are this small. The meaning is in the value that we place in the things that we do and the actions we take. I place value on disturbance; on time; on commitment; on soul; on balance. These are my ramblings and thank you for being part of it and for reading. To all: live long and prosper. Until next time. Same bat time. Same bat channel.