The Lily Cafe is thrilled to celebrate mothers this May and is honored to host Unconventional Mami!
I thought I knew how to live and love before the birth of my son. I thought I was a caring, determined, motivated, nonjudgmental, optimistic, responsible, strong, seized the day kind of person before he came into my life. Boy, was I wrong! All the childbirth preparedness classes in the world could not prepare me for the reality of motherhood. For the first time in my life, I was overwhelmed with the complexity of my emotions.
I was not the type of preggers with a beautiful glow, always comfortably chic from head to toe, embraced the bodily changes or even enjoyed my full pregnancy. Although I gave birth to my son in 2006, maternity fashion, trends, and remedies were not the way they are today. I believe I worked the bump until I was six months pregnant. After that, I was constantly asked at work if I was carrying twins. Needless to say, at that point I was miserable and probably looked it half the time. I can honestly say now, that when I am feeling proud and complete joy as a result of something my son did, I realize it was all worth it. However, when he pisses me off, I secretly look at my belly pooch and stretchmarks, and say to myself “he did this to me.” See how those complexities work themselves in? They never end; sometimes multiple times a day and irrational at times. I would not change it for the world. I am grateful and satisfied in ways I didn’t think were possible. I never could have imagined there would be an emotional rollercoaster I would be willing to ride every day for the rest of my life. My son (without knowing) forces me to constantly look within myself, challenge myself, and give so unconditionally.
From the moment he fed from my breasts, I became the most caring, determined, motivated, nonjudgmental, optimistic, responsible, strong, seized the day kind of mother. Which I did, because those who have, know breastfeeding is no easy feat. In other words, motherhood has shown me what it is to be all those things with an open heart and an open mind. For this kind of love is intense, unconditional, and unbreakable. Perfection is the least important and mistakes are guaranteed. Being open, honest, and loving is what matters most to me.
Thank you so much for sharing what motherhood is to you!
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