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Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 8: The Fears, the Symptoms, the Uncertainties

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As overjoyed as I was to learn I had conceived so soon after miscarrying and to see such an amazingly dark line, it was quickly tempered by fear, worry, and doubt. This time around was vastly different from the first. Instead of dizziness, I had annoying headaches. Instead of being quite sleepy, I felt wide … Continue reading Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 8: The Fears, the Symptoms, the Uncertainties

Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 7: I Should Have Known Something Was Going On

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Despite my husband's reassurances, I was prepared for the long wait for another positive pregnancy test. The doctor had said to wait 3 months, but we had decided to not follow his advice. Still, there was no guarantee I would ovulate any time soon, no guarantee I would get pregnant again right away, no guarantee … Continue reading Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 7: I Should Have Known Something Was Going On

Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 6: The Story of a Lamp

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When I first envisioned my road to motherhood, it was full of sparkles and glows. I thought of my body changing, had even said goodbye to my pre-baby body in preparation for the coming changes. I expected morning sickness, aches, exhaustion, and a growing belly that I couldn't wait to show off. I didn't expect … Continue reading Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 6: The Story of a Lamp

Finding Magic in Motherhood Part 5: The Miscarriage

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In all the plans my husband and I formulated, we never even considered miscarriage. We knew it existed, but didn't know much beyond that. There wasn't a history of miscarriage in my family that we knew of. My mom had never miscarried. There was no reason for me to think it would happen to me. … Continue reading Finding Magic in Motherhood Part 5: The Miscarriage

Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 4: The Timing Had to be Perfect

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The decision had been made. I would become a mother, but I would only become a mother on my terms. I was an unplanned child and, while it created quite a change in my parents' lives, they were willing to make changes and sacrifices I was not prepared to. So, my husband and I plotted … Continue reading Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 4: The Timing Had to be Perfect

Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 3: The “Do You Want Kids” Question Froze My Brain

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Women typically fall in one of three camps when it comes to having kids: yes, absolutely not, and on the fence. And some can't decide, so they make their way from camp to camp. Then, I'm hoping, there are those like me: no on the outside, yes in the heart, and on the fence in … Continue reading Finding Magic in Motherhood, Part 3: The “Do You Want Kids” Question Froze My Brain